An unlikely artist

When we got the call that Cindy was coming out to the hospice house the warning was, "She's not going to last long." Cindy was in her 50's with end stage COPD.  She'd been in the hospital for weeks stuck on a machine called BiPap. They had worked on weaning her off this machine, but weren't successful and didn't feel comfortable using opioids like morphine to help her breath more comfortably.  She was frustrated and didn't want to continue to live with a mask forcing air into her lungs, stuck in a bed in a nursing home or hospital, so she decided to come to the hospice house.

Cindy was extremely anxious when I met her, years of smoking had left her thin and much older than her stated age. Her eyes had that scared, wide open look, as someone fighting for each breath. Introducing myself, I asked if she would mind if we tried a new medicine for her breathing and explained how morphine actually would ease the work her body was doing for each breath.

Within days, much to Cindy's disbelief, we had her actually off the BiPap machine and on simple oxygen through a nasal canula. Morphine had reduced the work of her lungs to the degree that she didn't require as much oxygen and wasn't in constant panic mode.

Suddenly she went from a woman who thought she had only a few hours or days left, to someone with months to live. Cindy now had another dilemma; an abundance of time to anticipate her death.

One of the things we offered to not only fill her time, but help her process her dying was art therapy. Cindy admitted she'd never done art, felt clumsy and inadequate. However over the next months, our art therapist worked with her on expressing herself.  At one of my visits I happened to mention how fun it would be to put on an art show with everything she'd been working on. The sparkle of pride in her eyes was all I needed to pass the task off to our amazing volunteer coordinator.

This was an art show like none other.  The artist sitting, oxygen tubing on, while her room was adorned with her work. We had refreshments, while friends, staff and volunteers flowed in to admire and praise the artist. Cindy beamed, a long time automobile plant worker, I know she was tickled to think of herself as an artist. When I look at her work below, I see more than the pieces; I see Cindy's peaceful face reflecting the respect, praise and love we gave her.